Feeling good today. The past 5-6 days have been a real struggle. Money & personal problems have weighted down on my heavily which has left me struggling to deal (or give the appropriate mind space) with and as a result, have been pretty low.
On reflection, I should have done what was necessary regardless of how I was feeling which is the point of building up these daily routines so that I do them by default. The more I commit to them, the easier they become as they end up being second nature.
So yes, feeling more positive today (although the problems are still obvious). I woke up and did my exercises which I had been putting off for some time. I think I have sorted a suitable schedule for my current lifestyle and it’s important to note that I am starting small and building up from there so that I don’t get too overwhelmed by them and make excuses early on in this journey.
I really want to prove to myself that I can do this. I have done it before and I am no different to anyone that has successfully turned things around. The outcome is binary – either I do what is required regardless of anything… or I don’t. It’s that simple. So it’s just the case of getting up and working through what is planned and that’s it!
This morning, for example, I was coming up with all kinds of excuses. After a couple of minutes, I just got up, hydrated and got stuck in and my mind is in a much better place for doing so.
When you do what is required, your subconscious stops giving you a hard time and you can focus more easily as you are not beating yourself up as much about not doing anything in the first place.
I need to make sure I come in tonight and do the evening journal. This is definitely where I’ve been slipping and when I think about it, is the catalyst in some ways as to why my momentum slipped over the last few days.
Regardless of how little something is that needs doing each day, once you don’t do it once, then you immediately give yourself an excuse to not do something else on your list and the momentum of putting things off increases. The same goes for doing what is needed in that the momentum increases. You are either going forwards or backwards. Again, the direction is binary!